Surprisingly enough, I'm feeling quite good about this schoolyear, ironic as it is with my previous entry. It feels like the whole experience of our last year in highschool is going to be pretty interesting for the next 8 months we're to spend here. And yes, I like my classmates and teachers, so that's a big addition to my optimism scale. :}

I guess we all deserve this anyway, since more than anything else including schoolwork, we still have our own futures to worry about. Seriously, this entire college thing's really getting to me and I'm finding it exceptionally pressuring to have only three days more to decide on my courses for UP. See, my mom, dad and aunts want me to take Nursing for me to find a stable, high-paying job easily. But my mom has her own reasons too... she wants me to be with my other cousins (who are currently finishing Nursing) in the states, or wherever it is I'm going to start earning after college. My lolo on the other hand wants me to take up Medicine, as I'd been telling him as a kid that I would be a doctor and take care of them when I could... but I don't know if I can make that come true for him anymore. I don't know.

I'm really okay about being either but there's just something that draws me more to the arts, and so far I'm still choosing between Interior Design and European Languages. Shoot, I don't know! The whole thing's just getting me confused... really confused.

*Frustrated sigh*. I guess I'm leaving that up to HIM for now.

Anyway, we have a new photography club in school and I really want to get in. The hard part is that there are so many first and second years trying to get in as well, and our club moderator's only planning to accept half of those who went for today's introduction on the club. Looks like I'm gonna have to work extra hard in getting past the club screenings. I already have two schoolmates who already seem to know a load about this from what they showed the moderator a while ago {they have a scrapbook full of photographs they've taken... and all the pictures seemed to have been taken with a PROFESSIONAL camera. All the shots looked so purely professional that I felt like I didn't know anything about photography at all. Not that I know much anyway. :p} so it's pretty disheartening to join when I know that I hardly know anything about it.

But I really want to join the club... I'm not very good at photography {I have no idea on lighting/proportion/distance/shutter speed or how to develop pictures in a dark room), but I'm willing to work on what I can do. I haven't taken any lessons on the subject either so I've got a lot of catching up to do too... and I'm willing to do that as well. I really like having it as a hobby and I want to do something I really enjoy for once in highschool.