Pagod na ako. We just had an Ecosongfest practice the whole day yesterday, and then a soiree with 4D right after. Both were enjoyable fortunately (masaya ang soiree sa wakas), but were draining. I guess I'm happy that even though only 11 from tauphi attended, the soiree still turned out well. :-)

And then today we had another Ecosongfest practice until noon. Walking under the scorching sun and commuting repeatedly from home to school to KFC to home to McDo to home really drained me of any energy I had left and I just want to rest right now.

Darn I'm tired. I feel a little numb right now for some reason. Maybe I'm just hungry. Or sleepy. Or both. I still really don't know what I'm trying to look for, much less what I want to find in the end.

Naalala ko tuloy, Ms. Boots even asked us four questions in CL class that made me think about so many things at once:

-What do you want?
-What do you really want?
-What do you really really want?
-What do you really really really want?

The whole activity made me realize that I really don't know what I want as of now. It made me realize that I want so many things and yet nothing in particular and that just made me feel a little lost. In the end, I found myself answering the last question with to be truly happy and want nothing more.

But is HAPPINESS permanent?

I just hope that I don't have to wait for heaven to get this.

I don't know if happiness has ever been permanent for anyone, or if it will ever be.